In order to get what you want you need to be able to operate while tired.
If you have expectations, you will be miserable and frustrated. Is what you believe to be true really true?
However you are living today is a direct result of the stories that you tell yourself. If you want to live a more powerful life, you need to tell more powerful stories.
If you want more power in your life the first thing you need to do is keep your word.
If you keep making the same mistakes and your life is not what you want it to be, you need to grow up.